The Good and The Not so Good

I have fingerless cotton thin grey small gloves which I love... like everything in my life that I really like...they give me control and yet do what they are intended to do. I drive a shift car, etc...I am a happy woman when I wear the gloves. Since I live in a world of fear of scarcity (think it is a gene from my father), I don’t want to be without and so in preparation of the final fraying of the little grays, I went on a search. I checked the Internet.. leather, isotope, etc.. no no just little gloves. On my way into BJ’s, I stopped at the Grainier Sport store. First they look like they are going out of business.. but the sales person said they just had a big sale and were cleaned out. Yes they had fingerless gloves.. (of course... winter hunting) Oh.. now I have a choice. They were much more GLOVE than my little glove.. wool, lined.. and they had two kinds.. one that had a magic flap that would cover your fingerless part if you wanted and one that was a plain fingerless. I tried on one..then the other.. then the first. And finally thanked the salesman for his patience. They were both $12.99. I walked about looking at kayak’s and cook stoves and long underwear and fake ducks that sure could not fool me.. and then walked back and selected the one without the flap.
I walked to the checkout and the guy said, "Do you want another pair, they are 2 for 1." I had just spend ½ hr of my life deciding a non decision. Probably there was a sign but I was so intent on the product, I did not look at my surroundings. Since they were both the same price.. I took the other and my second, paid and then sat in the car and thought.. now do I wear the one with the flap or without.. and laughed and thought, I just purchase more opportunities for indecision but I think there was a lesson on observation and mindfulness in the process.
I drove the car to the next parking lot, went in to BJ’s thinking I just saved $12.99 and walked about the store putting stuff that I needed, wanted and could use and checked out for $198. I gulped, paid and went to my car happy that I saved the $12.99 and wondering if I could ever go in and come out of the big box for less than $100 and drove home happy and broke.