more bla bla without pictures

For me, very early in the Sunday walking market process, I start to zone out. I buy a pair of pants, a shirt or two and quit. I don't need things for my hair, or toes, and surely not the black vegetable gelatin that you put sugar on and still taste like slime to me. So I walk about and snap a shot or two until the over bright florescent lights get in the way of any kind of a decent shot in a fast/slow moving crowd. I have found that I am getting closer to Haiku thinking... I.e. I saw a very beautiful young Asian woman walk past me... and thought there is a a very beautiful young Asian woman walking past me....and once you take the judgment out...is is just “passing”... two life forms are passing.... for those that worry about me...I am fine, just refining my aliveness. I am determined not to be dying. Again,.. nothing is wrong. We are all dying....but I want to be in the process of “now” re birthing. Again, do not worry that I am joining the fundamentalist.

While I had a nice conversation with my new acquaintance, I watched people, particularly couples. Very few were really at the same place but they were trying to accommodate so no matter where they were, they were attached. She wanted to look at jewelry, he looked at jewelry. She stopped looking and he stopped looking but they were TOGETHER. I wonder if he were by himself he would say, gosh...think I will go look at jewelry. I wondered it he were to say, I want to go to the mury fight would she say, I want to look at jewelry. If she is afraid of losing him, she will cheer for the blue trunks fighter and dream of jewelry. If she thinks she can control him, she will pout until they are looking at jewelry. So is that an adult relationship or two perpetual teenagers?

There appears to be two paths, one where you are mindlessly bumping along to the next day and

adventure in a state of getting older and in a process of dying or you are awake and aware of what you need to gain wisdom. Both get old and the end is death, but the wise person is aware. Awake and alive to their own soul and personal growth. They don't live in accommodation to another in fear of missing the companion nor to they live a ground hog day life... going from one person, situation, etc after an other and always repeating ...giving too much and then feeling empty. Not taking care of their own needs, putting everything else first...

The key to a great life, from my observations, is to know what you need and seek those that help you grow to your highest and best. One rides a horse one studies “strings” ...both support... both are enriched by the experience. One takes pictures and one reads.... but at the end of the day...both are growing...and loving the other more.... ah......isn't life a hoot.