touching base with me

I know my last posts sounded more pensive    I don't feel sad.  I smile when  I remember watching last years academy award show on the phone with Georgette and think of my life full of adventures - mistakes, stupid decisions, accomplishments, etc.. all good...all perfect.  I write my quest thinking on here so I can look back over the 400 plus posts and see my location...physical and emotional.   I feel this morning like i was dragged behind a truck...but this too will pass.  I don't know what the 40 yrs of sadness was in my lungs..  I don't cry much... only once on this trip when I felt I had lost my focus by indulging in a couple of beers... but I feel good...here...now... and less worried about getting swallowed up when I come home...my resolve is strong....  I like being quiet in the morning..my meditation time..my qigong start...my big breakfast....even the heat, traffic and body pain from the massage....all good.