The Plan (SB)

It is only the first Tuesday that I am in Thailand and already I have said Hello to Dash at his restaurant, started my Qi Kong class, met with my dear sweet Chinese Doctor, had a two hour massage with Phat and worked out a plan for my body.  Had dinner and breakfast with H&H, dinner with the gypsy twice…. Etc.   As H&H and I sat in the garden last night, we all commented that it felt like we never left except they did come to the house in the interim.

This is the first time that I have intentionally come to Thailand with some personal goals beyond getting my teeth fixed.  I am not sure there is such a thing as a “sinner” but if there were I think my definition would be knowing what you should/need to do and not doing it.  I know that I need a strong practice to keep myself mindful, discerning, congruent and living with integrity.  I also know that I need the fortitude to live in the world and maintain my bonnyness.   So, I have come here to take some good look at my life, do the slow cleaning, and honestly face myself.  To this, there must be balance – introspection, relaxation, reflection, and for me, looking at life as a cartoon.

This balance will also be reflected in my blogging.  This blog is for me.. to help me see all the facets of my person as they fly onto the page.  I rarely edit except to spell check and only occasionally think I have gone too far.  I try not to make judgments of others and on occasion I am a little hard on myself or not as supportive and positive about what I have accomplished.   As I watch the words come down, I am seeing patterns and many things that will help me be the person I want to be all the time and not just when I am half way round the world. 

Even in this short time, I have recognized I need to step back and out but my ego or sense of “if I don’t who will…” keeps tossing the brass ring in my direction and I grab and run.   This is a journey of being very present and getting my Yes…and I mean it and it is a commitment… and No.. and I mean it and I will not waver.

This is the plan, for those that want to follow the travelogue…. I will just put up a tile and for those of you that don’t care about my soul searching and really don’t want to read about. I will put (SB) in the title… as in soap box and you can just delete my dribble.   Some of the readers are into both and I thank you..for that is me and that is my journey.