Tuesday, September 15, 2015

New Year....New Day.... New View

A long pause between blogs
I needed to get off the slide and sit quietly in the canoe. Sometimes see myself trying to connect to people and places but I really don’t have an interest in the connection.  It is like taking a raffle ticket for a tricycle.  Why.  So I have been taking some time to ask where I am going, who is in my boat and how did I feel about my journey, not any destination.   
Some elements just had to go. The first shoved out was the voice in my head. You don’t know how much babble is going on until you start to answer and have conversations with the voice. The worst is when you change what you want to be doing to something the voice thinks you should be doing and someone with whom you really do not mean to be doing anything.
I am in the last section of my life and in intend to live as if it is my last week. I have come to realize the VOICE is part of every insecurity I have ever had. It stores a long list of how I should be and what I need to do to be the person someone else thinks I should be. The voice appeared to be intent on raining on my parade and I am now intent on enjoying every drop if rain even if I am out in the storm alone.   It is my journey.
Therefore, who should be travelling in my life will be there. To the others, have a real life.

You are on your own.  

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