I have spent time this week trying to understand micromanaging. In the past several months, I felt that I
have been the subject of this process from an outside force. The more I have looked at the subject in the
Harvard Business Journal and other such places, the more some of the attributes
shifted toward my own life.
I have tried to get out of others way of life
and when I witness people doing things that appear to be harmful to themselves
or others, I try just to let it be. Sounds noble. But as the two concepts came crashing into each other in my own life, I have come to
the realization that I am a micromanaging judgmental
person when dealing with myself.
My goal for my upcoming retreat will be to become more aware
of the mental gymnastics that I play with myself. It would be wonderful if I could display
equanimity and stay mentally even as an observer. At this point, at step one, I will be content if I can at least recognize what I am doing
when I do it.
Life is very busy liking and disliking, bringing in, pushing
away feelings and events in my heart.
When I sense something nice, I want to hold on and when there is
something unpleasant, I try to sweep it out the door. Neither will stay with me. Everything is temporary.
Oh, the
energy I put into trying to manage my life and get it fixed for once and for
all. That is not going to happen, but there will be less stress if I just
learn to surf the waves of life and enjoy the movement and the moments of
happiness.
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