Starting the next year with some observations. Everyone says how remarkable my health is and then even though they are not in great shape proceed to give me health advice. Now, if I asked, “what would you suggest I do for …..” I would think that was a kind and thoughtful thing. But when I am just sitting and folks start insisting that I do this or that and don’t appear to be satisfied with just… “I’ll think about it”, I am not sure what to do.
If you know me at all, I have seriously looked into almost everything to help myself. When I went deaf in my left year, I tried everything I could find - sweat lodge, Sharman, acupuncture from several schools, candling, meditation, medication, past life regression, a famous Chi Gong master who offered to give my money back ($1000) if I was not cured, hypnosis, etc. as well as an MRI to see if I had a brain tumor. Every once in a while I see something new… but I try now not to let me go down any more paths. I have taken speech reading, I position myself on the proper side to hear, and generally do well and most people do not know.
I have two physical issues, a left arm that will not go straight nor straight up next to my ear and a right leg with no meniscus. At the dinner last night, a well-meaning but insisting Chinese expert insisted that all I had to do was rub my knee 48 times a day forever.. and I would to the Lazarus thing and walk… One of my Minnesota boys who has had many surgeries and did not walk well said he would buy Cosamin since he has no pain. After 10 minutes of trying to say you can’t revitalize tissue if there is no tissue, I have agreed to take it and I am on the second day of rubbing my knee.
I am rather a faith healer. That is, I have to have faith to feel that something is going to have an effect. I had faith for six years that I would hear again. Especially since I appear to have the syndrome and the chance of me being totally deaf are higher than most. Can you imagine a dyslectic sign language person. Now that is funny.
So that brings me to where I am. I was grateful that all that happened on the last day of the year. I have spent the past two months actually taking inventory about what brings me joy and enhances my life. There are some significant changes coming down the pike. I am euphoric that I am not at home, so I can give more thought as to who and what I will be walking away from upon my return. That life is more permanent. Life here is simpler. I am seeing the great humor in life and so enjoying my passage.
I love my swimming buddies. One is a younger good swimmer, and the other is an older man that is happy just to be putting his head in the water and feeling comfortable. I look forward to my time with them and teacher Fred who is as much of a philosopher as a teacher. My first coach, Joe, was so important to me. He taught me to run but more how to run my own life and feel great about the experience. I think he has sent Fred to me to get me on with the water issues. I don’t care that I have to go cross town and get into a pool of water.. I am happy. The first thing he tells us to do… play in the water.. play with your friend.
I want to live my life like that.. and I will not spend my energy on anything, place, people or thought that does not bring a smile. I am very excited about where I am in my life. There will be some farewells but many more hello…
Hello.....My name is Bonny and I am swimming.
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