Tuesday, December 13, 2016

A broken clock - an opportunity to watch yourself


I got into bed around 11 Monday night and thought a few sprays of melatonin would send me to la la land. It did, but then my broken international clocks got me up around 2 AM, and I was ready to start the day. “it was the time before daybreak, and all through the house, not a creature was stirring except me.” 

I was up and out to get breakfast and my scooter by 8:30. A long walk and when you walk alone and are not distracted by the conversation you observe more.  My ability to just watch without judgment and comment is getting there. I am listening to the tones of the sounds, and you can tell a 2 cylinder from a 4 scooter when you listen.  That doesn't matter but the discernment development is. I have the technique I now just need to develop the application to improve my listening skills.  Realizing that I often talk because I can’t hear, I require more one on one and fewer group experiences.
After the walk, it was not long before I began to realize that I was tired because I felt that everything appeared to have a flaw.  
They didn’t bring my 2nd cup of coffee (they did when I was staring into space) 

The bank goofed, and my card is not working (I then remembered that you can’t take out more than $500 in 24 hrs.)  My first month of lodging with the deposit was about 300 and my three months of a scooter with deposit about $320.  Mr. Jaguar took my passport and let me pay about $75 until tomorrow.  We have known each other for four years...but very Thai to do that. 

Thank you, JoAnn, for the Thai money… it provided a great resource when I needed it.   

I have never been a napper, but I needed a nap.  Rather than tough it out… I went down for an hour.

This all was a good lesson…pay attention, check in with yourself…  I have added the look and listen to the pause.  Stop/Pause…and pay attention.

I ended the day with Indian dinner with H&H, connecting with Bonnie and Jume and swimming teacher Fred…found a gym across from where I am living that will charge me $75 for three months.


And it is all good 

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