FEAR

When I stop to think about an action I am about to undertake and I keep the thought in my head, I can easily talk myself out of doing something.  I am not sure what “truth” is.  A few years ago, I put a wedge between myself and good friend by stating just that.  The other person is very convinced that they have learned a true way of living regarding their food.  The discussion came to that there are some things that are true and should be accepted as true.   This is not my belief.   I don’t know if there is a universal truth beyond the basic precepts of not taking a life or that which is not given. 

When I let my thinking slip to my heart/soul, I have a better feeling that what I am thinking of doing at this moment in time and why and how I will do it, is my truth at this moment. 

Many things that I once thought were true, I later found to be not true or at least not true as presented but maybe a variation.

In looking at history, even my own history, the things that I thought were permanent became leaves in the wind and things I thought would never be, became reality.  

I can observe suffering and can feel suffering but I can also reduce my suffering by accepting what has been my past, my karma, and determine if it brings me any peace to churn my actions or thoughts over and over or am I more content to accept the acts/thoughts and use them as lessons for my Now actions.

I do not want to have anything I think I want to do or should do not happen for fear of…………………..

My greatest fear would be having a regret that I did not act when my head and heart say go for it because I was afraid.