I pushed back my calendar to last year and
noted 12/22 shop for the farm - Dec 23-26th Hudson. I can see myself driving up the drive and
watching the white silhouettes of the curious horses, walking in with bags of groceries, the dogs
running everywhere and Georgette in her chair.
Was it only a year, or a century ago or yesterday? Today, the farm is owned by someone else, the
dogs are dispersed, and the horses and Georgette not in this world and I will
have dinner in Rochester and see a movie on Christmas.
What have I learned from all that has gone
on this year? I think it has been that
when you are in the middle of a great mess, when there are new things happening
to you… new house, new car, new love, new money…when you are faced with choices
and decisions….. you need to walk slower, sit quieter and notice, listen, sense
what is true.
I listen to the heads on the news and
everyone thinks their way or thoughts are true – get rid of guns, arm everyone,
only those that have signed up for a religion will be saved, I walk in the
woods and see god… etc. are someone’s truth.
But what is right for me, what can assist me on a path of completion and
fulfillment of my purpose. How can I
not get caught in the litter flying by in the way of filling holes in my life
or giving me instant pleasure or spend time picking up the dimes of life and
miss the dollars, the gold. What is my
truth, purpose, value. I return to
stepping out, free the calendar and spend time with myself…. I value friendship and more, I value the
opportunity to be a friend. I value
simplicity and ease of living and want to share what I have so that others can
find a calm breath. I need fewer things
for things do not make you happy. I need
fewer people but people that connect, are real, have examined their own lives. Breaking bread with laughter makes you
happy. Keeping life simple and being
aware of every waking moment can help you find your truth, give you the answers
to the bigger pictures… and you start become true to yourself.
1 comment:
Hi Bonny! I don't check in nearly as much as I would like to or remember to, but whenever I do I find your entries to always resonate with me :) Hope you are well, we are all good. B is in 4th grade now and still a beautiful, sweet kid. Miss G is in 2nd and keeps us all on our toes. Wishing you all the best in 2013 ~
Elaine M
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