Thud....back to reality

         Got up and looked at the clock….5:45 am Sunday so 5:45 pm and Sunday walking market time in Chaingmai.  .…so I mentally walked over to the coffee spot and get ready to stand for the Thai anthem  Reality....Out the window, there is a light dust of snow on the ground and trees…which will be gone as soon as the sun awakes.  In upstate NY…with only 57 days of full sun, that might not be today.  It is so different here from 62 days of full sun and warm and in BKK…steamy. While the house looks great and Beth did a super job of getting the place cleaned up and back in order after the painter…I now see too much stuff…and things that need to be tended to but for this weekend, I will watch SU basketball, go through mail, organize the checkbook…see that I have stuff ready for taxes and plan some retreats.  

        I really don’t want to get engaged in “stuff” and would be happy to try to get my sleep pattern back and figure a way to maintain my body at the optimum level. 

        So my first plan of attach is my ego which says that if I do something heroic for someone, I will be appreciated.  I am 73+ and still have not accepted my reality. So it is time to get real, know that I enjoy my own company and I am happiest when I am alone and then enjoying others company as a “desert”.  

        I need to rid my body of the excess stomach/belly fat so I must change my diet and putting my food first.   I had hoped to get myself on a routine while in Asia but that did not happen.  Not even meditating daily and my qigong goes when I am not in class.  What drags me down some path of wasting time?  I guess I will give myself a point for recognition if not action.  (My name on the “zone” where I play spades once a day is ImaTimewaster and that is very true handle.)   

       This week I have tried to keep my schedule pretty light and I am going to try to limit my commitments to 5hrs a week outside my body and health schedule.
       Managed to do two loads of laundry… but much of the Thai stuff is still on the dining room table…. 
       So for today… a photo show, buy kitty litter, cook and continue to move my body a head eleven hours.