Sunday, November 30, 2014

Happiness (sb)

       To live just in the NOW is a great shift from where I have conditioned myself to live.  Being the person that I have created from hurts and joys and events and actions of myself and others is familiar.  It this my real inner self.  The child/spirit that was created when I was born or the person that I was meant to be.   I have some fear of this openness and tend to rush back into the known, to check my computer to remind yourself who you I am. In this way…I will try to train myself to just lie still and be open to the unknown. 

     I knew this trip would be an adventure and several times I thought of not doing it… I came to get acquainted with the core of myself and know the simple present self and not the persona that I have created or hold onto for fear that there is nothing really underneath the memories, trauma, fears that I clutch.
Some very hard tasks are on my work list

·         What action, conversation, event, place … when I go there will lead to my long term happiness
So that I can act on those things that will bring long term happiness
·         What action, conversation, event, place …when I go there will lead to my long term unhappiness
              So that I can develop the strategies for recognizing the distinctions and use my experience to know what will work toward your happiness
·         I wish everyone Good Will and that I hope they find happiness.   Some may wish to hold tight to that which makes they unhappy…. That is a choice.
·         Live in the present moment.  It comes with no baggage.   I will not carry a suitcase into my tomorrow… bad enough I packed it when I did with unhappiness or happiness that is no longer present.

Recently I have been asked two questions…. Do I get angry… and am I a playful person rather than complex…..

1.       Anger….funny, someone In my life told me I was an angry person.   I spent a great deal of time on that and finally saw that there was some projection from the author.  I have passion for causes and what I think are injustices.  Now I see that what is in front of you, with no history, no past….. then there is  little to make you angry.   Anger comes with baggage.  There are many things that made me want to act in an aggressive manner… but for what?  I my present work, I am trying to take each situation, event, occurrence and see…it I want to do something about it… march in Ferguson etc.. And if not…. The time and opportunity have passed…I didn’t march and that is ok…   
2.       Playful vs Complex – I am not the village idiot but a multifaceted person with many sides to my bonny prism. I read, think, see, hear, observe, am introspective…..but in the now.  One of the first things I observed about the Dalia Lama is that he laughs a great deal.  In an interview at some time he was asked about it…. The basic stuff was most of life is just funny and when I don’t take myself seriously and try to be who I am not…I am the funniest.  


So happy smiles…..  

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