Life is as big as the end of your vision.

     I spent time today with someone who is interested in putting balance in life.   I have put letters on the pages over 700 times, and there is a thread in some of my nattering that sounds much like I was looking for balance.  Just the right amount of adventure, time with people, time without people, time on the cushion, time sitting, standing, sleeping.  Ask a busy mom, life doesn’t work that way.

    In my recent journey with myself I have come to believe that like walking, life is a dynamic equilibrium.  Unless you are actually standing still, motionless, you are always off balance.  My new thinking is that you never get so far off balance that you cannot right yourself.   The tipping point.  I am not interested in seeing how far I can go over before I dump but more like riding waves, you shift a little here and there and come to the center.   The only game rule, you must protect yourself from unnecessary injury and if you must get hurt, know why and how.

   I think if we never are off balance, we will always stay in our safety zone and not take risks.  Non foolish risks are right, they push you .  It is also important to know when you have to sit this round out.  Stop and reassess. You have to know when to quit, step away, leave friends, etc.

   One of the other comments was an observation that I am “set in my ways” because I order the same thing I always have at two different restaurants.  I said nothing because set in my ways is not one of my faults.   How I look at the food if that over the many years that I have been in Thailand, I have eaten in many places.   I know that place has the best Koy Soy and that place the best Indian and that place the coffee the way I like etc.   So, I decide what I want to eat and when I walk in, it is same same.   Not set way but the set that I elect to eat in this restaurant.

   One of my takeaways from this trip is that I don’t have to come back to have the life I want to live.   I thought that I needed to get to a neutral place to have a calm life.  What I have found is when you are mindful, your vision and thus the view of your path or journey is right in front of you as far or near as your gaze.  Breathing brings the calm and when I am calm.. I ask.. What do you want.. and then  If I feel like music..I have music.