Back on the horse

As someone said everything happens for a reason….(probably everyone’s mother….oops just looked it up and would never have guessed

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

― Marilyn Monroe

So yesterday I had a little dip, and I felt like I lost my way.  It happens but what happened was the best part.  After I got over thinking of everything I would have done differently during the past several weeks, including the 21-day retreat, I got excited about all the things that I will do in the next weeks - 27 days.

More importantly, as soon as I stepped back into awareness and being in the now, I could feel that my disappointment was over, and I was very present.   Had a chat with brother Henry this morning and was reminded of some of the process of growth that involves peeling the onion. Another lesson might be you get a layer of skin off when you least expect it.  My meditation time today was very calm and focused. People came into the Wat and left, and I was just in the zone.  I gave myself a day off from most things and took some good introspection time for myself.   Today, I got some things checked off the to-do list and in 24 hrs. I am in a good space.

Thanks for kind words, suggestions, opinions.  What I learned from all of that was, you just have to put one foot in front of the other where you are, and you will get to the end of the path.  Just like all the concern shown me, I have to walk my path and seek what I need.  The best anyone can do or say is, I’ll walk a little with you if you want.  

When I was walking the marathon, most of the time, I was just there by myself.  Not a lot of short people walk and keeping your pace is vital.   An old man, funny my age now -78, was running and then walking.  He came up next me and said, want some company, I walk for a mile then run again.  In 5280 feet we came to appreciate each others path and the moments we walked together.  Sometimes that is all it takes.  I was feeling alone and then responses and someone was reading my scribble.   

So.. happy valentine bonny and anyone else reading…   one foot in front of the other.