I will try again to put a photo into the blog. There is a collage waiting but I have already spent 1/2 hr trying to get it to load.
It is interesting how much putting pictures into the blog is helping me with my practice. You can not push the process so must either quit or just let it be.
I went to the Dash restaurant the other night after my humbling Thai language class. We were to work an hour but the place closed after a half hour. It was at that moment I knew how you do anymore is how you do everything. Teacher gave me about 20 words of which I knew about 7. Do you think I could remember in 10 minutes what was just said. Language is torture for a dyslexic person. I am on a quest to find a different way to learn. I have don a good job of putting names to people so I will have to develop some tricks. For now chan mai sabaai dee ka, (I not fine, thanks) but I will persist. Our next meeting is Thursday at 6-7. I will then go to the movies and see a favorite of mine "IAM".
I fussed with the proposal on Monday and will plan to do the actual writing on Saturday. Friday at 3 is root canal and although I am planning to attend a party that night, I will take some down time Saturday and put the concepts into grant from. I suspect it will take a few weeks to finish the dental work.
I am impressed that they could build a computer tooth from one shorter and only half there. They found a small cavity on the top inside of the tooth as well.
So some thoughts.
I was stressed to learn that my best girl Kay is in the hospital in FL She has had clots, fractures, knee replacement, and on blood thinners. We all make choices, but I have been uneasy seeing her energy in the resent times and her body has been beaten. She had a new event while traveling and needed surgeries. In addition, her mate is at a major crossroad with some esophageal issues. So if you have any extra energy, I am sure she can use it to be ready for whatever is on her plate.
I have been observing and I am beginning to think a major drive toward expressing dominance over others and it is fear. I have replayed many conversations and when I feel people have been threatened by me it has been a perception that I am critical and they must defend. I am learning to just observe and not offer an opinion.
When I was in school I often did not say anything when the verbal or sarcastic thinking they were funny folks talked about the less secure. In looking at the precept of obtaining from harming another, you really must go farther and help someone who is suffering or in distress.
Much like the second, do not take what is not given. This extends to taking some one's space, or time. So it is off to the Chet to read and meditate and then dinner at 7. Laew kun la ka. See you later.